Today I am starting day one of being honest and being honest with kindness. For so long, I have prioritized kindness to the point where I have neglected honesty. As a result, the kindness I give can make the receiver feel as if it is artificial or even (I am ashamed to say this) manipulation, … Continue reading How do you practice honesty?
Well, tomorrow is the day. I'm going back to see my birth country tomorrow.... and I haven't packed. I've been feeling a mixed medley of nervous, anxious and excited. Nervous, because I won't know what to expect, and excited because of the energy of being in a new place. My parents and I have been … Continue reading I’m going back to China for the first time since my adoption!
Sometimes we need to have others call us out on our shit. You'd think that as soon as we ourselves recognize our pitfalls, we'd do something about it. But other times, like this one, it takes someone else to notice and call you out on it. So here's the tea: Today, my mother confronted me … Continue reading Thanks mom, for this reminder.
I can’t imagine letting go of someone I have loved -- romantically that is. And I haven't had that experience yet. I’m 22 years old, by the way. I have never felt the heartbreak of losing someone I love dearly -- whether caused by death or a general fallout. And because I carry this fear … Continue reading Part 1: Afraid to lose you, whoever you are.
I moved to the states Because of state control Over a population Out of control But that’s not everything Everything could be Anything, Why was i given up? Up, they looked “This is the best for her” Her life will be better this way. Away we will give her, they said. And on July 5, … Continue reading I am Home: A Poem About Being Adopted
This post was originally composed in February 2018. Falling for someone and moving on for the first time is like taking on a highway the first time you get behind the wheel: you've only seen driving from the passenger's side, but now you're living in the driver's seat. Everything happens so fast. I found myself … Continue reading The first heartbreak is like a car crash: sudden and painful
There are many things I fear in this world. One of them is snakes. The other is loss. Perhaps one of the most tragic things about life is that the people who fill it with such meaning are inevitably bound to leave -- whether it's soon or maybe several years down the line, we must … Continue reading Fearing the inevitably of loss
I took for granted the reality that was projected onto the walls of the cavern. I believed the shadows and refused to look beyond them. Plato would say that the cavemen never had the desire to step outside of the cave. I, on the other hand, did not know there was another side. I was … Continue reading Reality hurts, make sure you know which one you’re in
I can't help but spend time in nature when I need time to think. For some people, unwinding means taking to the gym to exercise and let some steam off, for others, it means opening a blank page in a notebook and writing continuously, as if tomorrow's edge kept sliding away. But today, I chose … Continue reading Seeing life through a glass: broken or whole
When I was 20 years old, I failed. I struggled, and I grew (though I'm still 5 or so feet tall). My major pushed me to my limits and challenged me more on a personal level than I ever thought. I faced resistance I didn't think I would be able to, and I faced … Continue reading Life’s a bike ride: we fall and we continue to ride